Strange few days

It feels like it has been a strange few days. Currently, I am extremely unsettled. I will get to what I think has set me off…

A few times for the past week or so I have reached a point where I feel like my brain completely shuts down. This has resulted in me curling up on my corner couch in the fetal position not being to do anything. I’ve noticed that I am unable to focus on what I am doing and zone out. It then feels like I am in this mindset for what seems like an eternity. 

This happened last weekend. Luckily Dave was here. He put my ipod on our speakers and eventually he distracted me. However, this happened again yesterday afternoon and again in the evening. Last night Dave had to prompt me to get up off the couch.

I have posted frequently that I go to the gym a number of times a week. I have also said that this is an ongoing struggle to do. I had actually felt less anxious about the gym the past week or so. I had spoken to my friend at the gym for a good half hour on Monday night. 

I got to bodycombat on Wednesday morning and stood at the back in a space waiting for the class to start. An older woman came in and stood directly behind me. My friend noticed this and asked everyone to move forward. This woman then actually pushed me! I told her not to push me. I was so angry. I don’t know how I managed to stay in the gym for bodycombat, bodypump and pilates. This is actually progress for me. A few weeks ago I would have walked out straight away.

At the end of bodycombat I decided to say something to this woman. I said that I did not appreciate being pushed. She then tried to argue with me! My response was that there is no excuse for it and I walked off to get my kit out for bodypump. 

I spoke to my friend at the end of the classes. She was disgusted and said I could make a formal complaint. She talked to the gym manager who then phoned me yesterday. My friend asked me if she could tell the gym manager about my depression and anxiety which I agreed to. The manager was lovely. She told me to keep coming the gym and that I am to tell her if anything upsets me when I am there. The infuriating thing is this woman hadn’t even booked on to bodycombat! My friend and the manager tried to find out who she is. This woman has actually broken the terms and conditions of her contract and could have her membership revoked. On Monday the manager is going to come up to the studio to see if this woman is there. 

I feel so strongly about making a formal complaint. It is wrong that someone thinks they can behave in this manner. After the phone call from the gym manager I was in tears. The whole thing played on my mind all last night. I wouldn’t want anyone else to feel the way I do because of this woman. I refuse to stop coming the gym but other people might not feel the same if something like this happened to them. 

On Tuesday I went out for the day with my sister. We went for lunch and I had this 



It was amazing. Really filling. So much so I couldn’t finish it all. We then looked round some shops. I got some stuff from primark for Australia. It was nice to spend the day with my sister. We have become closer recently. 

I am going to end this post with a photo of a note Dave left me under my phone this morning. It was lovely to read after how unsettled I have been these past few days. I hope everyone who is going through similar things to me has someone like Dave in their life. He gives me the strength to carry on x



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12 thoughts on “Strange few days

  1. The adrenaline you must have felt by standing up to that woman and making the formal complaint! Amazing! When you did that, you effectively stopped her from bullying other people and pushing them around. You told her that you are important, which you are! If everyone could stand up for each other this way the world would be better. Way to go!

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    • Thanks Elle! It turns out this woman has been making other people feel uncomfortable at the gym. The staff there now think they know who she is. I just think it is completely unnecessary for people to think they can go round intimidating others. I didn’t see it like this so thanks for helping point this out to me x

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  2. I echo the above statements about standing up to that woman, well done. I know how depression and anxiety can rob you of the confidence to take a stand like that but you handled it brilliantly.

    That was a lovely note as well.

    And finally, that lunch looked amazing.

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  3. First, what a lovely and sweet note. So glad you have someone so strong by your side. Second, that woman should be taken to task for her actions and I’m glad the gym manager is standing beside you on this one. Third, I totally relate to the fetal position on the couch, thanks for sharing.

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  4. Keep up with the gym it’s a great way to escape when you are feeling down also going out for walks or out for the day helps a lot to keep your mind occupied and not worried about being depressed or anxious. The note says it all. Glad you have Dave in your life, everyone needs someone like Dave in there lives. Xx

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