Before I start this post I want to thank all the people who have taken the time to get in touch with me. It has been a huge help. I would especially like to thank Matt, Vicky and Amelia for your emails and texts. You have all been such a lifeline when things have been so bad.
I am now on new medication. That makes three different medications in just under a year. It was really useful having Dave with me at the GP appointment a few weeks ago. We were able to talk candidly about the situation with me and we were taken seriously. The doctor said that if this medication doesn’t help I will be referred to a consultant psychiatrist. I have had a phone assessment for my referral for talking therapy. The woman was lovely. I am now waiting on an appointment to restart CBT.
As always, I had my reservations about switching medications. I worried it was going to impact me to such a degree it was going to hinder my ability to work. However, I feel that I am in a much better place. I am proud to say that I went back to the gym last night and enjoyed it. There is a new class I am trying out tomorrow thanks to a recommendation from a friend at the gym. It helps that she will be doing it too.
It is nice to feel like I am living again. The past few weeks I just wanted to hide in the house. All I was doing was going to work and taking Walter for a walk and even that was a massive effort. Dave’s uncle is over from Brisbane and it was lovely seeing him. We are seeing him again on Friday along with my immediate family as we are all going out for tea. I also have plans to see friends over the next few weeks.
Walter’s operation went fine. It was awful leaving him at the vets. The house was eerily quiet without him. The day after his operation, Walter was back to his usual self. The hard part was keeping him calm when all he wanted to do was play. He had his last checkup at the vets yesterday and they are happy with how he has healed.
So for now, I am enjoying the reprieve from anxiety and depression. Right now, I have the strength to fight it.
Lost to the Dark 
I don’t know you obviously, but such lovely news nevertheless. Here’s to continued progress!
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Thank you x
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Great to hear, long may it last! x
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Thanks Clive x
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Yes! Been thinking of you. You do have the strength to fight it!
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Thank you x
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Gemma, we just “met” via blogs and I want you to know I’m rooting for you!
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Thanks Lori x
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This is really brave of you. I hope you continue to feel better x
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Thank you x
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Keep on trucking! Glad you were able to get back to the gym. Physical activity (for me) is the best possible thing to take the edge off (though I do it so rarely!)
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Thank you. The new class I did at the gym this morning was really good x
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i’ve only just stumbled onto your blog (having one of those down the rabbit hole evenings when im finding 100s of new blogs) and im guessing youre talking about depression…my mum suffered with depression for quite a long time and i can tell you that 100% i hope you get better and that you’re doing amazingly well just to be positivie like this and get out of bed in the morning because i’ve seen firsthand how hard it can be 🙂
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Thank you so much. I have anxiety and depression x
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Hope the new meds work out. Sadly, even the best psychiatrists in my experience as a nurse working with them don’t have any sure fire way of telling which ones will work best for whom.
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Thank you. The meds I am on seem to be working x
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