Happy 1st (blog) Birthday

So I came on here tonight to this lovely notification. I needed this after the past few days. As cliche as it sounds, it’s hard to believe I have been blogging for a year. 

On Sunday night my mood came crashing down. I cried so much my face hurt. My anxiety was in overdrive. I kept jumping to worst case scenarios about everything that was going through my head. 

I managed to get to the gym on Monday night. I thought Bodycombat would help. Unfortunately, as I had been ill between Christmas and New Year, I found the class really difficult. I was having to stop loads as I was struggling to breathe. This didn’t help my mood at all. It was really frustrating. 

I had Little Miss early this morning. My mood wasn’t great as I struggled to get to sleep last night. So I went and did an extreme abs class at 10.30am. It went well and I felt better for doing it. 

I have my first CBT appointment on Monday. This is my referral appointment after having my CBT stopped when I was under the crisis team. I think it has come at the right team given the difficulties I am experiencing. 


11 thoughts on “Happy 1st (blog) Birthday

  1. I’m sorry you went through a bit of a difficult time, but I’m happy that you did well at extreme abs class! Try to hold on to the positive. I know it can be hard, but it’s important. Also, congratulations on your WordPress anniversary!


  2. bagofnerveslady says:

    You don’t even realise how strong you are! Even when you’re down and struggling, you still keep pushing anxiety back. That’s the only way to beat this thing. You’re not letting your mind take over. I honestly think you should be proud of yourself 🙂 Of course it’s easier said than done but I just wanted you to know that you are doing impressively well. x

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  3. I’m so sorry to hear you weren’t doing so well Gemma, but I’m so inspired by your strength you remind me that its okay to be down once I’m giving feeling better my best shot! Keep at it! And happy anniversary on the blog time sure does fly xoxo

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      • Awww I know the feeling, but trust me sometimes we have to trust the people around us to see our strength when we can’t I am doing alright my muse keeps me on my toes its so great that they understand my feelings and try to help me keep rational, otherwise I’d probably be spiralling out of control

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      • I understand completely, there’s always that shadow of a doubt because sincere people are so hard to find especially in today’s world, and thanks so much ☺


  4. Wow, I’ve just found your blog (after you found mine! thanks so much 🙂 ) and it’s so encouraging to see that I’m not alone in dealing with mental health issues. Congratulations on all the great things you’ve achieved and experienced this year! Best of luck for 2016, keep it up 🙂

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