I am actually nearer to 29 weeks now. I had my 28 week midwife appointment last week. It went really well. My urine sample was clear, my blood pressure was normal, my bump is measuring spot on and Jellybean’s heartbeat was great. I love hearing her heartbeat.
Pregnancy wise I am doing well. The midwife was shocked at how active I am but said it goes to show how it is helping. I still cannot eat loads of food and heartburn is more of an issue now. Jellybean is super active and I am feeling her move right up by my ribs a lot now.
Yesterday was my 32nd birthday. I have had a lovely weekend. On Saturday, my friends, Mum and sister threw me a surprise birthday party. I was really not expecting it and was so touched. They had been planning it for ages.
There was a theme to the party to do with the name we have decided on for Jellybean…
Yesterday we went for a curry with my family. It was delicious. Today, Dave and I are round at my best friend’s. Her two little girls have made me birthday cards. Tomorrow, Dave is treating me to a day out. We are making the most of being baby free!
Sorry I have been so quiet on here. But it’s all for good reasons. I have been busy spending time with my favourite people.
I love my group of friends at the gym. They are so amazing, positive and encouraging. They have been there when I have been anxious or my mood has been low. I’ve had motivating messages and offers of phone calls during recent lows. They just totally understand my anxiety and depression.
So my life recently has been dachshund meet ups, christmas coffees, party planning, cinema trips and it has been lovely.
Walter and Poppy
Walter looking very handsome in his new red jumper
Salted cappuccino and honeycomb latte
Walter and Lola
I can’t take credit for the amazing birthday cake. My mate made this over the past two days. I made the cartoon words, zested some lemons, washed and dried a lot of dishes and kept my mate company.
So this time in two weeks (hopefully), Dave, Walter and I will be in our very own house. Just need to get a move on with packing!
I had a lovely birthday last weekend. Dave got me tickets to go to Warner Brothers Studios near London where they filmed the Harry Potter films. He also got me a golden snitch charm for my leather pandora bracelet. He has even paid for my best friend’s ticket. We go in two weeks. We are making a weekend of it. My friend is going to drive and we are going to stay over the day before our tour.
We went for a meal to a nice pub near where we live with my family. I met my sister’s new boyfriend who is absolutely lovely.
We viewed two houses on my birthday. The first one was ok but I couldn’t picture living there at all. When we got home, we came across a house down the road from where we lived. We managed to view it and fell in love with it. Dave and I talked about it and we put an offer on it. Our offer has been accepted! We have a mortgage in principle thanks to our amazing mortgage broker and a solicitor.
We had no idea that things would move so quickly in finding our own house. The couple who we are buying the house from are lovely. Similar age to Dave and I and have similar interests. We can go and look at the house whenever we want. I explained about my job and that Dom comes round to mine each week. I can even take Dom to see the house to get him used to it. They want to meet Walter too. We have no idea when we will move into our house. But in all honesty, I am not worried about it. If anything, I am really excited. We wanted to stay near to where we live now as it is a nice area. I just didn’t imagine we would find somewhere within walking distance.
During the school holidays, I work more. As a result, I have been slacking in regards to my blog. Thankfully, I have been feeling a lot better since I posted last. But if I feel like it again I will be going to see my GP.
I have thoroughly enjoyed working with Dom and Faith more than usual. The days fly by and we have been up to lots of things. I have shared a number of photos on my Instagram account (@originalgemskibob) if you would like to see them.
Dom has enjoyed spending time with Walter. We have taken him for walks and all enjoyed some lovely ice cream. Dom, Walter and I visited my sister at work. Walter was fussed over and Dom made sure everyone was working! Tomorrow he wants to bake a cake for my birthday at the weekend. This is the first time Dom has asked to do anything like this for my birthday.
Faith and I have done loads this summer; colouring in, played board games, dog walks in the park, watched DVDs, been the cinema, shopped, workshops at Pets At Home and started a reading challenge at the library.
As I mentioned earlier, this weekend it will be my 31st birthday. Dave and I are having time off work and having some much needed time together. We are seeing a mortgage broker on as we are desperate to have our own house. We are also spending time with our friend and her two little girls and having a meal with family.
In terms of my mental health, I am doing well. I still experience a dip in my mood and anxiety but I am able to deal with it. It helps that I have a really good support network around me.
One way I know that I am in a good place is that I am really broody. Dave and I have talked about having children. Once we are settled in our own home, we are going to start trying for a baby. As excited as I am, I am also terrified about having a baby. A huge concern I have is my medication. I would not be able to take the anti depressant I am currently taking. I have had a long struggle to find the right medication for me so the thought of having to talk to my GP about this fills me with dread.
Walter has had a lovely day. My brother came round this afternoon and Walter was delighted. We took Walter to get some treats from where he went for his puppy classes. One of the trainers from his classes served us in the shop. She loved seeing Walter and could see for herself how much he had come on.
This was Walter’s pupcake he had after his big walk.
We then took Walter for a big walk at one of his favourite places. He saw lots of other dogs including another dachshund called Frank.
Faith wrote Walter a birthday card so I sent her a photo of Walter with it. I love the photo I managed to get.
Needless to say, Walter is now completely worn out after his fun filled day. He is currently fast asleep on the couch.
Yesterday morning, I woke up feeling not right. My throat was sore, I had a headache and earache and I was so drained. Today I woke up feeling even worse. My throat feels so scratchy and raw and my earache is unbearable at times. I have white spots on the back of my throat too. I didn’t want to just sit in when we had plans today. But I have probably done far too much today.
So I plan on resting as much as I can this week. It’s Dave’s birthday at the weekend and we are planning to go the zoo on Friday. As much as I love the gym, a dog walk today has left me feeling awful. So I won’t be going the gym this week
Emotionally and mentally, I have still struggled at times this week. Nothing in particular has been playing on my mind, but the feeling of uneasiness has lingered. I have CBT again tomorrow. I haven’t even attempted the task I was set. But I plan on telling my therapist that things haven’t been great.
Happy Birthday to my amazing Walter. This little dude keeps me going when I am struggling and has made my life so much better.
Happy 13th Birthday to Faith!!!
Although I have only been working with Faith for four months, she has made huge progress with me. When I first met her, Faith would instantly say, “I can’t do it” when faced with something she found difficult. Now, Faith’s confidence is growing. She wants to do things herself and is incredibly proud when she masters a new skill.
Because Faith has Down’s Syndrome (and suspected autism) her muscle tone is low and she struggles with coordination. This makes tasks that you and I may take for granted a challenge. Faith is now able to put socks on without any help. She is able to use a knife and fork much more effectively when eating too.
So a huge Happy Birthday to Faith; a cheeky, funny and loving young lady who continues to help me with my anxiety and depression as much as I strive to help her reach her full potential x
The end of the year normally results in people making resolutions for the year ahead. I’ve never been one to do this. If you want to achieve something, I don’t think you need to resolve to do it at the beginning of the year.
I do think the end of the year is a good opportunity to reflect on the previous year. As much as I experienced some pretty extreme lows, I want to focus on things I have achieved and the good experiences from 2015.
So in no particular order:
- Honeymoon in Australia – being able to spend time in a place I have always wanted to visit was incredible. It was made even more special by Dave’s auntie, uncle and cousins. From taking us to Steve Irwin’s zoo, treating us to a 3 day trip to Sydney and the countless meals out we have some unforgettable memories.
- Getting Walter – our amazing little dachshund!!! He has brought so much to my life. My little therapy dog has been a constant companion at my side since we got him in May. Nothing beats cuddles, walks and playing with Walter.
- My 30th birthday/surprise visitor – turning 30 was made extra special by a surprise three week visit from Dave’s cousin from Brisbane. It made me realise that I have some truly amazing people in my life.
- Work – Dom has made loads of progress this year. Getting work with Little Miss helped to rebuild my confidence as well as being incredibly rewarding.
- Family/Friends – 2015 helped reaffirm to me how I have an amazing family. Dave, my parents and siblings have been so supportive. I have also had quite a few days/evenings filled with laughter with them. I am also lucky to have some fantastic friends who have been understanding and caring when I have told them about my anxiety and depression.
- This blog – I started this blog as a way with dealing with my anxiety and depression. I never thought I would be part of such a wonderful and supportive community that has over 400 followers. So thank you to all those who have read, liked and commented on my blog. I appreciate each and every one of you. I talk with some people from here on a regular basis who I consider friends (Vicky and Matt). I’m hoping that this year that Dave, Walter and I get to meet up with Vicky and her partner John.
Happy New Year!!! I hope 2016 is a great year for you all. I have some potentially exciting blogging news to share with you soon.
A big Happy 13th Birthday to Dominic, one of my favourite people.
For the past four years I have been lucky enough to be your “support worker” as you refer to me. It is an honour and privilege that I get to help you reach your full potential. You have shown that those with Autism and ADHD can make progress. It’s hard to believe you are now a teenager. It feels like just yesterday that you were 8 years old; when you were terrified of dogs and fireworks, struggled with changes and resistant to trying new things.
Love your hugely proud support worker x
Yesterday I turned 30. I had a lovely day. We went out for breakfast which was delicious. My pandora bracelet is now full as I got more charms. Dave, Emma and I took Walter to the park near my parents house. We saw a woman with two dachshunds. Walter got on really well with one of them in particular. He was around the same age as Walter too.
We went for Mexican in the evening with my brother and sister. This was a disappointing meal – service was slow, food was cold. It is somewhere Dave and I have been to loads since we have been together. I ended up with £40 worth of vouchers to use again at the restaurant.
Normally I would have let something like this really get to me. I was able to move on from it pretty quickly.
My mum made me a Maltesers birthday cake. It was amazing:
We are going to have a day in chilling watching films today with my siblings in ours. Tonight my parents are coming over and we are all going out to a really nice place here for food.